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I got to Oriana House

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because I had

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a serious drug problem.

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It was out of control.

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I knew that my family was in jeopardy. I wanted to stop getting high.

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I just didn't know how to stop getting high. I

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was suspicious of everyone who said they were clean

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because there's no way they could be clean.

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What do they do, drink a beer every now and then? I didn't understand it.

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I just thought I was different.

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I'm gonna tell you something 

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about this Turning Point Program.

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They have a unique

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structure and

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team.

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It starts with the judge.

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Then you have a probation officer,

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you have a case worker,

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Then you even have a recovery coach.

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You have everything you need.

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And when you start struggling,

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they don't want to lock you up. 

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They want to

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pinpoint

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why you were doing what you were doing.

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And then you

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have a relapse prevention plan.

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They create these certain plans on paper.

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It's very intricate.

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And these people really do care for you.

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They're not doing it because that's their job.

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They're doing this because they're trying to help you.

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And it's personal,

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it is personal. They even have psychologists

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that they refer you to.

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They say, "I think you might need some mental help and check out some things."

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And that was the road 

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that helped me out a lot because

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it wasn't that I was getting high, it was

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why I was getting high.

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I had to go back to some places that were very dark in my past,

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and started when I was about five or six years old.

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And I had to feel comfortable talking to that individual at

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Oriana House.

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We laid 

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some things out. 

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We revisited those painful memories.

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I was free from that.

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-Free from that.

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I didn't feel like I was unworthy anymore.

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I knew that I was worthy, and I started loving myself again.

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And it was

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a beautiful thing once I found out.

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I learned the difference between feelings and thoughts. 

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I was angry. I learned the difference between

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aggression and assertiveness.

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Different things that were just words and I thought they all meant the same things

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but they had totally different meanings.

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That was important in my life. And I was able to identify

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relapses before they come and understand when I get angry

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when I feel in certain ways that maybe I need

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some peace and some moments of prayer and some time

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for myself. I learned 

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not to spend so much time up in my head,

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to be around people, to be connected to people.

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Because I was in the environment of imprisonment for so long,

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staying away from people is how you survive.

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So I brought that same mentality. I learned that

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everything had to change but not all at once, a little bit at a time.

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And I learned to trust other people. Everyone doesn't have a game or

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trying to manipulate you. To learn to trust other people.